But what I think about fair ... what was fair about Jesus dying a cruel and painful death for MY sins???? He made the ULTIMATE sacrifice, so who am I to complain about my own personal sacrifices??? All day long I tell my kids "don't say, 'that's not fair'" .. a phrase forbidden in our house ... but oh how often do I cry out to God in a rambling of not fair self-pity??????
It is said that trials just strengthen our relationship with God. I can saw how true this is. I have been on my knees more than EVER simply because of my children. I have been angry at God. I have doubted his ways. I have wanted to give -up. But there is just something about the love of our Saviour that is so powerful and gentle. I hear God whispering to me EVERY time I am tempted to quit .... "You are right child, you can't do this alone ---- that is why I AM here." I have been put in a place that I can't live WITHOUT God!!!
I don't know what the future holds for my kids. Is Dalton looking at major kidney surgery?? It's a high possibility. Will we ever figure out what is wrong with Lily??? I don't know. Will William remain healthy with his kidneys???? I don't know. I have been asked "With all your kids health problems, will you have more?" ... Of course I will. If I had stopped having children because it was difficult then Christopher would be an only child :).
I do covet your prayers as we go for the results on March 22nd of Dalton's latest testing. May God give us the wisdom and strength to make the right decisions.
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Oh, and Kidney Beans is back open after the holiday break!!!!! Mother's day is coming up .. get your orders in now!!!!
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