So its been over a year since I posted ... where to begin?? How about the last 45 days before arriving in New Mexico. John comes home and says "I got the job. We have 45 days to be in Albuquerque." I got this I thought to myself. I mean this wasn't the first time we had ventured out of state. Oh boy, was I ever so wrong!!! I had no idea that the next 45 days would be complete HELL!!!! Dalton kicked it off with a broken arm, surgery, and a hospital stay. I was up next with a miscarriage that landed me in ICU. After changing my clothes FOUR times, with blood running down my legs, John took me to the ER. My BP fell to 70/40. I endured several excoriating procedures before they finally had my BP up enough to do a D&C. The whole ordeal left me completely exhausted, unable to keep up with daily tasks, four kids, much less mourn the loss of our baby (the second in a row that is in Heaven). Follow up appointments, dental work for William (he's 2, crazy I know), and to top it off John was GONE for training for 3 weeks of those 45 days. We finally get on the road to New Mexico, and our house doesn't close in time leaving us homeless for several days. By this point, I was just an exhausted, physical shell just trying to make it to the next minute. The song "I'm Worn" was my anthem. Friends would say they admired my faith and my strength ... There was nothing to admire but a shell of a human wandering through life just getting by. I wanted to believe that God was still God ... but I must admit I questioned it.
Well, here we are in New Mexico. They say hindsight in 20/20. Looking back on what was arguably the worst 45 days of my life, I am amazed that God was there at EVERY turn. Dalton is recovering from his arm. We got a AWESOME report that his surgery saved his kidneys!!!! William is healthy. I am alive and healthy with the clearance to try again on a baby!!! Friends where there at every turn and low point with acts of service, encouragement, etc. I feel the shell is cracking and God is starting to refill all the holes in my heart as only HE can. I have learned so many faith/life lessons these past 45 days. God has grown me in so many areas, revealed so many weakness and things about me that don't please Him. Although we are homesick for Texas, I am excited to see what God is going to do through our family here in New Mexico. Because I came out of these 45 days stronger than before.
With all that being said, Kidney Beans Embroidery will re-open :) I look forward to creating and selling as time allows. I am also a consultant with Young Living Oils. So, if I can serve you in any of these ways just let me know. :)
